February 2010
I'm so tired.
Not only am I mentally and physically exhausted from being pushed and pushed and pushed to do things that I know are only supposed to make me a “stronger person,” but I’m tired of being told to stop feeling what I’m feeling. I cry? “Stop crying.” I’m mad? “Calm down. Stop yelling.” I’m significantly upset? “Stop being so...
January 2010
@darkcircleseverlasting :
I LOVE JANE AUSTEN. Emma I wasn’t crazy about, but I was also moping about how much my love life sucked and that I didn’t think a brat like her deserved love. I was a bitter girl, hahaha. Thanks for the heads up :)
I don't want this.
No more snow.
No more loneliness.
No more being pressured to do things.
No more doing things for everyone else.
Rocky Panarella put it best : I need some me time. I’m living for everyone else. I need to refocus on what I want.
Time to go get dressed, do my hair, do my makeup, and sing. Because that’s what everyone else wants to see - a girl trying to be pretty for them, and...
Ughh.
I’m awake too early for my first Saturday without choir practice.
But I get to go to the mall …
… But it’s Saturday.
Good bye, nice, cozy, warm, cloud of a bed. You will be missed.
So. Today :
1. Mall for some new jeans :D and some shirts? I think so.
2. Clean room - hahahaha. Joke. Silly mother.
3. Uncle’s coming to town? Sweet, I’m down.
4. Do...
I hate the cold,
but I love when I get to snuggle up in a hoddie and leggings by a fire :) However, it’s midnight, and too late for a fire. But I can still snuggle up!!
G’Night, ladies and gents.
Well look at that.
My computer is now working.
I think it’s possessed, and the thing inside of it can’t decide between fucking with it or my phone .. it’s an even trade, I suppose.
Sorry for freaking out :) I thought all my writing was gone, and just about had an emotional breakdown for the 43920 time
Help me, please.
So I have a Compaq. I have full internet, full connection, AIM works, Skype works, everything. Except my browsers. When I try to open them (google chrome or regular internet ((E)) ) it says my browsers are “down”, and that one problem may be my internet connection - which is perfect. Then it says the only way for me to fix this is to go online …
How the fuck am I supposed to do...
“I wish I could tell you all this, and that you would feel the same, but I think...”
– le love. (via thewordsalloverme)
Oh, hey.
Dear midterms,
Fuck you, too.
Love,
Sarah
I now smell of coconuts and strawberries.
I had to wash the shitty day away.
Her screams shook the rafters.
Deliciously scandalous.
GUAHH. This is lame.
I just got back from the dentist. And half of my tongue is numb.
So now I sound like Homestar Runner.
“Smile, though your heart is aching. Smile even though it’s breaking.”
– Charlie Chaplin <3
Told ya I'd be back.
My dearest apologies. Off to study until 1 AM!! Bringing coffee to school? You bet.
Why
does music affect me so much? (Effect? There’s my inner child showing.) I literally did a 180 today, from being typical, cynical, realist Sarah, to this giddy girl that feels like anything is possible right now.
That’s just not how I normally am. Well, it’s how I used to be. Then shit happened. So now I’m not.
I’m giving my good mood until .. the first exam...
formspring.me
tomhardwick:
Perfect girl?
I don’t think about this too much, but a perfect girl in my eyes would obviously be beautiful, skinny but not too skinny, blonde/brunnette hair I don’t really mind, curly/straight; again I don’t really mind. somebody who’d be willing to spend time with me on sunday afternoons when there’s nothing better to do but cuddle and watch films and talk for hours. somebody who...
FINALLY FINISHED MY LONG ASS NOTES.
Feelin’ pretty good :) Go figure. If it’s past 10:00, I’m happy .. for the most part.
SHOWER TIME! Then sleeping. && By the time I wake up, my zen will be gone, I won’t have a positive outlook on love, and I’ll be having anxiety attacks up the wazzzOOO tomorrow. Stupid exams.
Might as well enjoy my positivity while it lasts :) Michael Buble does this to me...
Awwwe
I’ve missed my boys :)
I got a new follower :)
This is new.
Monday the 25th.
darkcircleseverlasting:
clichewords:
darkcircleseverlasting:
Lounge. Yayyy. Haha I didn’t expect anything better, so whatevs. Were you as caught off guard as I was?!
Yesss! I thought Kait and I were gonna be double casted, but I really should’ve known better than to think he was gonna put me as a lead. I really don’t mind though, I’m looking forward to the dancing:) But DUUUUDDDDE I...
Booo exams.
You make this whole week have a looming cloud of blechyness. Forgive me, I’m normally a bit more eloquent, but it’s been a childish kind of day. Time for little Sarah to make an appearance? Perhaps.
And, again, forgive me, for this will sound really pathetic. But. We had a stupid fire drill today - while it was dreary and gross. Like I said, blechy. - I was walking out and I saw two...
Monday the 25th.
darkcircleseverlasting:
Lounge. Yayyy. Haha I didn’t expect anything better, so whatevs. Were you as caught off guard as I was?!
Yesss! I thought Kait and I were gonna be double casted, but I really should’ve known better than to think he was gonna put me as a lead. I really don’t mind though, I’m looking forward to the dancing:) But DUUUUDDDDE I TOTALLY AM SHOCKED BY A LOT OF THE OTHER...
Monday the 25th.
darkcircleseverlasting:
All day stress about pre cal.
I think I did rather well though, only got a few wrong I think.
Double Double Physics: study for pre cal
Choir: “Altos, you’re out of control. I never thought I’d have to say that.” Ok…yeah.
USH: Study Pre Cal
PreCal: open ended
English: boring, nothing
Spanish: Game!
Di put the cast list up this afternoon and not gonna lie, I’m very...
PIZZA TIME.
Eatin’ some Elios with a knife and fork <3 yummmm.
Avoiding studying for midterms.
Kind of putting my life back into an order - not the way I’d planned.
SOOOO MESSED UP RIGHT NOW. Like, honestly, I don’t know if I’m happy, sad, manic, or just extremely entertained by myself right now. I’m that cool, sometimes. (taha. joke.)
I don't get it.
Why are people so mean. Why do we have to hate. Why can’t we accept. Why can’t we be honest in a loving way. Why do we go out of our way to treat others like shit. Why do we feel it necessary to voice our opinions in a mean way.
Say your peace, let others say theirs, agree to disagree, and get the fuck over it.
Wowzaas
I have extremely realistic dreams, to the point of I “wake up” and I can’t tell the difference between a dream and reality. It’s really cool/creepy/wonderful/horrible all in one.
So I had the saddest dream EVER last night. And I woke up crying. It took me a good half hour of being on facebook and tumblr to convince myself that it was just a dream, and that I was really...
AHAH, oh man.
Is it pathetic that while I was getting out of the shower my brother yelled in that we were late for my poppops house. So I go to my room to get dressed, but then I see my computer. Naturally, I go on facebook. Then I take notice to the fact that I’m sitting on my bed, on facebook, in jeans, a bra, and my hair tied up in a towel.
Naturally, what is my next move?
Post a little tidbit on...
“Save your heart for someone that’s worth dying for.”
– Derek Sanders
